Three years ago, we were in China anxiously anticipating meeting Faith for the first time. I remember wondering if she would be afraid or sad. We already loved her with our whole hearts and yearned to wrap our arms around her. I was picturing her leaving her entire world behind; Probably being in a vehicle for the first time since she was 2 days old. Her living situation may not have been optimal, but it was familiar. I now can look at Luke and see how much he wants for his mommy. I wonder if Faith felt like that about someone.
Although our main focus was on meeting Faith, I am thankful for the days we had in Beijing. We were able to see some of the most spectacular sites while getting to know the other AWAA families. The highlights included Tiananmen Square, the Forbidden City, the Summer Palace, and the Great Wall. The Chinese people we encountered were very welcoming and nice. As I talked to some Chinese women, my heart broke for them. Some were angry that others would abandon their baby, but I feel strongly that most of those doing the abandoning truly had no choice. I have no doubt that Faith's Chinese mommy loved her. My joy is her heartache. I picture a beautiful women watching as a stranger scoops up her baby in his or her arms. With every fiber in her being she wants to take her back, but instead she prays for her baby to be safe and to have a good life. In a moment her little bundle is gone! She feels a lump in throat, a hole in her heart and can no longer stop the tears. These are tears of mourning for a child you will never know.
Well that is it for today. More will come on Gotcha Day 2008!
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